It definitely feels like Fall now

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Actually I lied, I’m not ready for summer to be over. I forget I live on the outskirts of Chicago where there is no such thing as “shifting” into the seasons. It’ll be 80 one week then drop to the 40’s the next. Now in reality is it actually THAT cold. probably not. Actually let me check, please hold.
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ITS ACTUALLY 47 DEGREES??, and they say Hell is hot. Actually in Greek mythology and even ancient Mesopotamian stories, I'm pretty sure “Hell” is really cold. Anyways.
I love the Fall “vibe” and the clothes that come with it. Never the weather.
It’s times like these where I get giddy thinking about being in Miami soon.
Speaking of Miami I need to check my emails lmao.

Waiting for Class

I’m waiting for class to start in the next 40 minutes or so and GOD do I not want to go to English. I did the homework but that class is soooo slow I might die. I like writing, obviously, but I don’t care for reading. And by that I mean I don’t care for how she makes us read. I’d rather read the articles by myself and get it over with rather than read with the class and stop every 5 seconds for someone to make a comment. I’m very capable of forming my own thoughts and opinions. I understand it’s not as easy for others so it’s good to give input if someone else is struggling. But on the other hand I wanna get my work done and go home.
I didn’t eat anything for breakfast, so maybe that’s why I feel a tad more irritable than usual. I mean I don’t normally eat breakfast, but I at least grab an apple before I go. Mmmmm that’s probably why, my whole schedule is off.

I should grab a snack before I leave here, or maybe just as soon as I get home.

Anyways!, Bye blog :)

Stuck on my phone…

Are you chronically online??? Because I am. But atp it’s not even my fault. 

Keeping in touch

The only consistent way to talk to my friends is through my phone. And yknow?, I didn’t think I would ever get tired of staring at my screen. But LORD knows I am.

Of course i love catching up with people, but at this point, it feels like I got all my people in files on my devices. I’ll spend hours in constant conversation with MULTIPLE people. 

I’m trying so hard not to leave everyone on read it’s crazy.

It got to the point where I was basically off my phone for 2 days while at my Grandma’s house.  It felt great to not have to worry about responding to peoples texts and TikTok’s by the way. I swear I’m not trying to Ghost anyone. But imagine it from MY point of view. 

IM NOT ON NO COLLEGE CMPUS YET!!, I have no way of relieving my stress by going out by myself to chill without one of my family members breathing down my neck.

I imagine my family will still spam me when I get on campus either way, but at least I’ll have DISTANCE. But right now, I'm still doing school from home. And honestly, wouldn’t cha know it, being on my phone is ACTUALLY depleting my mental health!! Ahahaha

I’m fine generally, some days are worse than others, but oh my God am I ready to be somewhere far away where I wont have to worry as much. 

It’s just healthier for me to step away from my phone, but then when I do that, it feels like im ignoring y’all who are trying to check in with me.

No I have no solutions, yes im a thug and so I will thug it out.

The only think I can do now is just stay up til midnight getting this dorm room for Miami soon enough next month :D